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Autumn Gale's avatar

Honestly I often get the feeling that wordlessness is my primary mode of thought (though I do also have an active internal monologue), and explaining a lot of my thoughts requires translation that is hopelessly paraphrased and incomplete.

One mundane example I can remember oddly well is when I was at the gym with a friend and she complained that the handles/bars on one of the exercise machines felt weirdly far apart today. I looked at them and immediately realized they were tubes bent in a shallow, elongated Z-shape, and therefore rotating them in place around their cylindrical axis would bring the handles closer together or further apart, but absolutely could not express that visual image in words (I'm struggling with it right now in fact, but in the moment even a simple description like, "they're twisted around" was entirely out of reach). So I just reached down and flipped one over to demonstrate.

Strangely enough I am also a translator as a side gig, in a language very unrelated to English, and basically feel like everything goes through a layer of visual imagery or synesthesia first. The words "push" and "pull" on each other like they're weights connected by strings, in a way that corresponds to subject-object relations or temporal expressions, and then I find English words that add enough weight and pull in the right place. It's weird.

It's something I'm absolutely struggling with when trying to write more blog content because each idea pulls on five other ones like hauling up a big tangled fishnet out of my brain, and simply cutting the extraneous ones out leaves what feels like gaping holes in the net. Or blog post, as it were.

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I believe this mode of non-verbal thinking is in everyone, and in animals, too. We all have the capacity for it, but as humans, sometimes we have to de-program ourselves in order to even notice it and make use of it, probably because the neural link from perception to language is so strong that it makes us believe it's the only path.

I would call this mode of thinking "instincts" or "beliefs", an expectation of what's going to happen. You see a ball floating in the air, and you can foresee its trajectory falling down. It's a simulation in mind. You have a feel for it. I think what those mathematicians did was that they had these kinds of instincts for how mathematical objects behave, so they could run simulations in their heads. Think about how you write the letter "a". It's easy to imagine it, but hard to describe it. The key is not what they mean or anything rational, but how they feel.

I think that's how everyone acts to some extent, on instincts, not logic, like I don't think anyone would carry a big philosophy book all over the place just to justify their every decision to act morally.

Have you ever learned how to draw, from real life, not like kids' drawing? The most important skill that I acquired from learning how to draw was how to "see past abstractions", not seeing an apple as "an apple" but just a blob of colors organized in a certain shape. Without that, I would be just drawing the abstraction of an apple in my mind, not the actual apple in the real world. This is not easy, because the brain will tell you so hard to see the apple as "an apple".

And I think that's exactly what you get by thinking without words. It's not just the efficiency, but that verbal abstractions and logic sometimes don't serve us, and they blind us from seeing, from observing, from feeling, from paying attention to reality, to how the abstractions, expectations in our mind differ from the reality.

A tricky thing with words is that they encode not only a description of something but also feelings and emotions. We have the euphemisms for "death", like "pass away", "gone". They feel different in a subtle way, but they describe the same thing. We also have words like "fascism" that feels like something terribly bad, but doesn't really describe anything to many people. There are also non-obvious words like "power" and "freedom" that they both refer to the capacity to turn what you want to happen, your expectations, into reality, but "pursuing power" feels evil, yet "pursuing freedom" feels justified. That's probably why the pursuit of freedom is extremely prone to overshooting to cause catastrophe in history. It's hard to draw the line.

To some extent, the words we use to think, to tell ourselves stories, have the power to alter the subjective reality of how we feel, but it can also blind us to observing how we really feel and pay attention to the outside reality, if what we express in words really conveys what we feel.

It's definitely a complex interaction because how we think affects how we perceive, especially when it comes to feelings, and I can only accept that I will make mistakes.

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