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Man, sometimes when I read your writing I get the sense that more is possible in my own life. I'm in the thick of that process of figuring out how to truly live in partnership with others. Reading this felt like lighting the way a little more.

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I felt the same way!

I spent an hour today meditating on what the limitation might be in one part of my life.

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Mar 19Liked by Henrik Karlsson

One thing I can contribute to this is that this applies to physical skills as well!

I spent years doing yoga and pilates. A trainer taught me barbells, and my strength sky-rocketed. A yoga teacher taught me training regiments for backbends and splits, and I made more progress in 6 weeks than I had in 7 years. I think having gone through that process prepared me for reading this post. It really is possible.

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Maybe you will enjoy this passage from the Chuang Tzu

> Duke Huan was reading a book in the hall. Wheelwright Pian, who had been chiseling a wheel in the courtyard below, set down his tools and climbed the stairs to ask Duke Huan, “may I ask you, my Lord, what is this you are reading?”

> “The words of sages,” the Duke responded. The wheelwright continued, “Are these sages alive?” “They are already dead,” came the reply. Wheelwright Pian persisted, “That means you are reading the dregs of long gone men, aren’t you?” An exasperated Duke Huan retorted, “How does a wheelwright get to have opinions on the books I read? If you can explain yourself I’ll let it pass, otherwise, it’s death for you.”

> Wheelwright Pian said, “In my case I see things in terms of my own work. When I chisel at a wheel, if I go slow the chisel slides and does not stay put; if I hurry, it jams and doesn’t move properly. When it is neither too slow nor too fast I can feel it in my hand and respond to it from my heart, and the wheels come out right. My mouth cannot describe it in words. You just have to know how it is. It is something that I cannot teach to my son and my son cannot learn it from me. So I have gone on for 70 years, growing old chiseling wheels. The men of old died in possession of what they knew and took their knowledge with them to the grave. And so, my Lord, what you are reading is only their dregs that they left behind.”

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It’s a good lesson that some things have to be learned by doing and refining the doing process.

If reading were the only way we pass along knowledge it might be the dregs, or it might be the cream to top off the experience that the rest of the world offers us to learn.

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Mar 19Liked by Henrik Karlsson

i'd love to have someone like johanna pick apart my ideas and thoughts and ask me the questions i'm overlooking. i felt her style of thinking had an uncanny resemblance to my own – especially the way she gets excited by problem discovery. reading this piece made me realize that a lot of the conflict i experience when working with people comes from the fact that they might be frustrated by the same!

all to say, this piece really resonated with me, thank you for sharing : )

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Thank you for writing this. It really struck a chord with me.

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Sara and I have lived in the same house now for 26 years, and when we saw it, we immediately thought this could really be a great long-term project … and then we set about considering. We did the first, easy, addition in year 3, but then it took us 12 years to think through all the next stuff to do and when we priced it out, we couldn’t do it, so we had to chop the project in two pieces and wait another few years to do the second part. It’s really good now, really very lovely and suited to us … only Sara now wants to add a sauna and a greenhouse. Maybe another few years of thinking … it’s nice to have time to get things right. Lovely piece, both of you … I’m sure you’ll share pictures of your garden at some point?

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I love that Tom. I’m still a few years away from home ownership and excited about applying love and effort to it, making it beautiful, making it home. But also intimidated by how big of a project it is, and afraid I might settle for mediocrity instead of making it truly special.

I read the garden example in this essay and that’s the exact kind of intentionality I aspire to with my own spaces.

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It’s been a lifelong labor of love for us, and—right behind raising two kids who are now successful adults—our most satisfying shared achievement in life.

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Mar 19Liked by Henrik Karlsson

This was great, Henrik. I've been thinking a lot about how to handle the advice/input of others and you really helped clarify my thinking with this: "Often, when people tell you what to do they don’t understand what you are going for and project their interests onto you. This will kill your best ideas if you let it. But used right, feedback from (competent) others is a way to get more data so you can see further."

Managing feedback - knowing what to accept and to ignore - seems to be a skill you develop over time. I've even found that getting obviously bad feedback has helped me better understand who I am and what I want to pursue because it forces me to take a stand. Thanks so much for writing and sharing these ideas.

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Mar 20Liked by Henrik Karlsson

"We walk in circles on the meadow below the house, hashing out what it means for an idea to be mature, what the difference is between a “draft” and an “approach,” and so on."

My wife and I are also walker-thinkers: https://bessstillman.substack.com/p/the-dangers-of-walking-include-falling

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This is more on the tactical level but have you found specific ways to prompt more honest feedback? The opposite of the “am I ok?” type of priming

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At heart it is a trust issue. You are trying to signal that they will not lose something by being honest; rather, the opposite. So communicating that in a credible way, in tone, and by saying it. But apart from that: you have to earn trust. Signal that you get happy when you get small pieces of feedback, say thank you, act on it. Do that again and again and people will shift how they percieve the cost of being honest with you. Also, you can do this publicly to some extent. I, for instance, tend to tag critical comments under my posts to signal that I encourage that. For small acts like that, you build a reputation for valuing honest feedback. I see some people use forms that let people give anonymous feedback - have not tried that, but could work.

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The other side of that -- if you are the person who is giving the honest criticism -- is that you may have to learn patience. You criticise something, and the other person reacts defensively, and you think, ah, I will be milder and more supportive and less honest the next time. Learning tactfulness is all well and good, but it turns out that a lot of people react defensively, and then .... modify their behaviour in the way you suggested. And possibly -- but only possibly --then say, ah, you know I think you were correct about that after all. This more often happens in my life when the criticism I make manages to pinch somebody in the ego, *hard*. But sometimes you find out, that the person you were trying to teach did not have the pre-requisite knowledge to interpret and understand what you were saying. (Which, unfortunately, does not mean that you can identify what it is that they don't know yet which is the constraint keeping them from understanding you. This one can be really frustrating and hard.) After they go off and learn some more, someplace else, the understanding what you were saying can arrive in them as some sort of epiphany or shock. Mail from former students saying 'Thank you. I finally understand what you meant when ...' are always so nice to receive.

What I find most admirable in you and Johanna is that you are able to do this for each other despite the fact that you love each other. I find it a whole lot easier to be honest with people I don't have much of a relationship with, because if they don't like what I say, it won't effect me much. I'm not seeking their approval. If they decide to sulk, I can laugh at them. If they storm off saying that they never want to have anything to do with me again, I can wave. Savagely wounding somebody you care about is an entirely different proposition. Doing it by mistake makes it worse, not better. You people are very brave.

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Thanks for a beautiful, thought provoking essay as always Henrik. I have been grappling with a few questions of this nature and wondered if you had any thoughts. Many of the examples in the essay involve a curious person, trying to grow and actively on the lookout for ways to do so. However, I find that the constraints holding back most people are actually a lack of curiosity, self awareness and desire to grow in the first place. Do you know how one can develop these faculties in oneself or help another develop them?

On a more tactical front, I am also curious about what limitations you found in yourself as a listener and writer and how you went about improving them.

I know those are a lot of BIG questions all at once- but any insight/resources you can share will be helpful

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I'm very glad that this post was my introduction to substack. It turned me on to the community and has prompted me to start writing, which I'm very excited about. I didn't realize that there was a whole platform where people were writing about and discussing life in a way that makes so much sense to me. This is such a wholesome place, and I hope it stays that way.

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Apr 2·edited Apr 2Author

Yes, there are scenes on here that are very lovely!

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Something implicit in the action you describe is that while you are searching for flaws and problems and places to improve, there’s very little stopping or thinking about how to proceed. I think this is a problem for many people. They think “I don’t know what to do next” or “I don’t know what the right thing is” and they stop until they figure it out. To steal a metaphor from a favorite book “the ship is anchored until we can figure out why it doesn’t move” (Fifth Head of Cerberus). In doing *anything* next and trusting that you will learn *something* from it (even that it was a waste of time and energy) you make far more progress. So simple, but not a given.

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Yes! Wrote on a related theme here: https://www.henrikkarlsson.xyz/p/two-kinds-of-introspection

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Great essay Henrik. Came back and read it a second time. Reading your thoughts remind me of the agency I have to shape my own life into something I love, even if it deviates from the norm. And to be intentional about my life, really take an interest in it.

My main takeaway was: Johanna sounds like an incredible woman to have as a wife and co-founder for your life.

Love it.

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The love for each other emanates from between the lines - to have such a deep understanding of not just another, but your person must be the most fulfilling and special thing imaginable.

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Got to read this , when i was in the process of figuring out a solution for a problem I was working on. Glad i got to read. Thanks for writing

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